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Robin's Realm




Here I am on a cold snowy night

Wondering what is my plight?

Where am I to be?

Who am I?

Who or what can I be?


They all say just wait

You will see

What your journey will be


Do they not understand?

Cannot they see?

I am in much pain and confusion


They say the feel my

Hurt and pain

And I am sure they do

But really do they know how I feel?


I ask myself

How can I love someone so much

That does not love me back the same?


It will soon be

The two-year mark

I say take a look

A long hard look


Who brought more to the

Relationship? Who brought what?

You still sit here like long ago

Waiting for the phone to ring


Communication and Trust

You both said you had

So many things were left unsaid

But Why I ask?

And now I know

I did not want to face the facts


The facts that I now know

There was no commitment wanted

Oh yes he went through the motions

Why? To keep me happy I say to myself


All those times spent together

Were they just a fake?

Did he really feel anything at all?


Oh yes, you have gone back for a

Night here and there

With words said-

I do love you- but you piss me off so much!

Why? What did I do?


I see that I loved a man

Changed so much of my life too quickly for him

I took a leap of faith— moved myself

Yes the job was better— but deep down

I knew I was moving for love

For a love that I thought would last


That love ended on one part two months ago

The other end wants to cling on-

Again for what?

For the craziness of not knowing will he call?

For all the rushing here and there?

For more disappointments?

What was really there?


Oh yes I am scared now

Many fears I have

Especially living the distance from my family

It is my daughter and I here now

I must survive


To depend on another for happiness in life

Is insane

I have learned that I need to be happy with me


Yes I wish so much at times

That others could make me happy and whole

But I know deep down It is all about me

I need to be healthy in heart and in spirit and in joy


So as the light goes out tonight

The thoughts I shall turn

From the wondering of what if’s?

To the knowings of

I am a beautiful  person

I have many inner qualities

And I must chuckle as

He still tells me on

Those run in nights

“I am a stubborn man”


Well guess what!

Be stubborn all you want

Go to the bars and have that fun

You missed out on when you were so young


Sit alone on that hill

Nursing that hangover headache

Fill your home with boughten

Material things


Because guess what!

It is my turn in life

To be the stubborn one


I am going to get that life

I so deserve

One moment at a time

One second at a time

One day at a time


I know where my plight

Is to go

It is go on the Journey

The journey of me~


--Robin Walters, March 3, 2005


© Copyright 2005 by Robin Walters. All Rights Reserved. 

Robin Walters is an alcoholic relationship survivor and writer in New York state. Robin still longs to be a school teacher, but now satisfies that longing by sharing her life experiences in the hope that her lessons will lighten the load for others. She may be contacted at robin@empoweredrecovery.com. Read more of her writings at www.EmpoweredRecovery.com/robin .




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